Wednesday, August 31, 2005

i swear i'm going to get as fat as a cow
I've been munching on post blue berry cereal for the past hour NON STOP. and the box that i just opened this morning has now dwindled to like 1/8 of what is left.
when Nad told me she finished one box in one night, i didn't believe her. But now I do.
I'm appalled. Even though i've been told that blue berries are good for the brain.
But I think she didn't mean it this way.
And my bio clock has gone bonkers. I mean wth am i doing up at 2 am on a tues night.

help.

wen at 1:56 AM

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I function best with honesty.

Lately, conversations with friends have been rather insightful. heart to heart. i like.
And I'm glad that i can be of use. Providing support when possible. Just being there.
Its funny how i know how to give and give and trust and trust, but actually I'm one of those who needs to take constantly as well. Emotionally that is.
I miss how we could exchange hugs along corridors. I could do with a little more loving. But yes, tete-a-tetes are the best i get now, and i think they are the best.

All the mugging has put me in the 'logical' mode. Disecting conversations into.. "but the first thing you must consider..."
Being impulsive can be fun sometimes.

Sometimes i feel things slipping through my fingers, and i sit there either not knowing what to do/out of passivity. I have yet to figure that out. Friends have left/are leaving soon and I have started to fill that potential gap that they will leave behind. Past all this busy-ness that i'm stuck in, I'll realize that they're half way round the world. Relationships are changing. or have they already changed? Adapting seems so easy..another illusion.


N.B I have just discovered the joy of being wireless at home. It works even in the toilet!

wen at 12:58 AM

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Monday, August 29, 2005


3 hot guys up for grabs. for more information, contact me.  Posted by Picasa

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

when i'm down and feeling low
And confusion sucks my soul
How I need some place where I can hide away
Let me fall
Then your arms melt away
This cold fear
Because all I need is to hold you

Tonight hold me close
When I'm cold, let me hear your beating heart
Close my eyes,far away
Let me dream
And in the morning when I wake
And I know I'm blessed by God's grace
Just to open my eyes
And see your face

Burn both ends and I fall.

wen at 5:49 PM

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Friday, August 26, 2005

because of you

Because of philip ong ala closed memo, I have been deprived of sleep, waking up at 330 in the morning just to work on it. I'm tempted to tell my client to sod off and not make me some crank with eye bags. But my law firm will just close down, along with a thousand and one other possible scenarios that could happen. [ not forgetting a possible split personality-boon&boon]
But I still want to tell philip ong to smack himself and thank me for not wanting to throw him into jail.
*bloody word limits.*

Because of being where i am now, my life is taking on a whole new dimension.My regular bedtime has been extended to nothing short of 1230. I'm too busy to think about the concept of time [days fly by like nobody's business] except with regard to impending deadlines. I havn't had the time to watch a proper tv show and/or read the papers. MSN has become an everyday essential either for the sole leisure activity of the day or just to while away time during boring lectures. The weekend provides scant rest. It has come to a point when I feel guilty about going out. M.U.G.G.I.N.G i swear has become imprinted on my brain one way or another.

Because of this,short respites become extremely precious. the only respites that we get. tea at fosters today felt like pure indulgence. For that 2 hours or so.

Just because. things change. circumstances and people change.

sometimes i feel that i know what i want and yet sometimes i'm confused.

to a friend, based on my opinion, the person in question is just waiting. waiting for clearer indications before further action. wanting to be sure.
because of you.

wen at 11:43 PM

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Sunday, August 21, 2005

sunday morning

there is something very wrong when you wake up on a sunday morning and the first thing you think of is to mug.

i've been so very busy that sometimes i feel that i'm losing time which i want to spend with the people that matter. so for my darlings like mag,wing and flor.. i'm so going to date you babes.
for that matter, i have not been exercising and can just feel the fat piling on.

i still have not satisfied my craving for one good rnb clubbing experience and so when my dear partner told me last night to listen to power 98, it just ended up with me being stupid in my bedroom. ie bouncing around with the music.

such an inane post. so little time, so much to do.
but i want my cake and eat it.

wen at 10:44 AM

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with justin at his end of course dinner Posted by Picasa

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with my dear fi! Posted by Picasa

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with huifang Posted by Picasa

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abiel,justin n me Posted by Picasa

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ball power.. Posted by Picasa

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i like the colour combi! (with twee n jingwen) Posted by Picasa

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with germ and jared Posted by Picasa

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jared hard at work (not) at the bbq pit Posted by Picasa

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Friday, August 19, 2005

welcome to law school

It is hard to believe that I have been up past the witching hour just attempting to read notes to give myself some semblence of assurance. This, coming from the girl who used to sleep by 1030 in secondary school.

It is only the second week of school and yet, in more ways than one, it feels way much longer than that.

Readings come in everyday. Lo and Behold the moment should you ever say that you've got nothing to do. Readings engulf you. It is just like history. Just much worse.I didn't start making myself a regular at the photocopying machine zapping book after book (sue me for infringement of copyright laws(!!))worth of french rev/hitler notes until i was well into the 1st or 2nd month of school.

My days have amalgated almost into one. School,library,notes,canteen,more notes and more readings.. Even weekends seem to be disappearing. Weekends just mean more time to catch up with work. I never holed myself up this way before until before the exams.

the library has started to seem like an extremely nice place. A matter of spending quite abit of time there. I'm on my way to getting my full time membership..

I can't imagine what will happen during the exam period in months to come. Mugging partner, I am so going to need you for help and late night suppers.

sometimes, you just feel overwhelmed by it all. Attempting to keep abreast. With notes, with everyone.Emotions too.Everything comes together.

But I'm thankful for the pocket of friends that I've found. The ones who provide me wtih much company and laughs.

I guess its how law school says welcome.

wen at 12:46 AM

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Sunday, August 14, 2005


xiaohui and victor.  Posted by Picasa

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the really pokey wall Posted by Picasa

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jared and his magnetic powers of attraction Posted by Picasa

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anyway, the july pics are up
here

wen at 1:11 PM

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could have, would have.

All the could have beens and would have beens in the world put together would probably circle the earth a million times.

It just doesn't end. It's all suppose to make life a whole lot more interesting and exciting. But more often than not, such stuff are cringe worthy laced with a tinge of regret.

DXO COULD HAVE BEEN AND SHOULD HAVE BEEN alot more better than last night.People went in with high hopes. People came out feeling like crap. Its really a pity about the nice deco because I don't think i'll ever go back there ever again. Bad music coupled with a horrid DJ which resulted in lacklustre dancing and sulky faces and a sudden lack of vodka during the 1 hour of freeflow.I would have been much happier just pigging out with friends anywhere. I would even have been happier and more productive sitting at home reading beckman.I could have gotten my 8 hours worth of sleep instead of getting a pathetic 6, waking up knowing that i really should get my ass down to doing my readings. I would have been much happier if i hadn't asked justin n matt along. I felt bad that i wasted their time and their money.

I hate knowing about all the other possiblities that are/were open to me and yet i'm stuck in the middle. sometimes, just sometimes, following your heart may not be exactly the wisest thing to do.


My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when u handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant stratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily


I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal u
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

I bruise easily

wen at 12:30 PM

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Saturday, August 13, 2005

quiz me

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Shu-Wen (with the hyphen please)
2. wen
3. shu

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. snow ( during those irksome irc days in sec school)
2. yourvenus
3. wen(for obvious reasons)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my hair
2. my smile
3. i have a botox like face which the presentation ppl discovered. i CAN't frown no matter how hard i try. which means less wrinkles in the future!

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. a big butt.
2. huge thighs
3. big calfs( which i can't do anything about)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. my paternal grandparents came from china
2. i know minimal hokkien. whatever limited hokkien i know was honed during the years of painful hokkien conversations with my grandma.
3. my family doesn’t play mahjong or gamble during chinese new years.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. house lizards
2. horror shows
3. oysters and misc seafood

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. water
2. wallet
3. my handphone.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. RJ pe shirt
2. brightly coloured shorts
3. my red geeky specs

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. michael buble
2. bon jovi for those rock days
3. joss stone for that soulful feel

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. cannonball by damien rice
2. you and i by michael buble
3. here without you by 3 doors down

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. security
2. romance and surprises
3. lots of laughs

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I once took my mum's car out for a spin without her knowing.
2. I almost got drunk at my ct's place.
3. I love eating cheese with apple.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. abs ( which isn't all that easy to find)
2. Eyes.
3. Smile.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. msn-ing
2. Shopping.
3. just slacking around.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. sleep
2. finish my readings
3. get rid of my runny nose

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Lawyer.
2. air stewardess. but i can't cuz i'm air sick. funny.
3. teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Bangkok/phuket /or any beach resort
2. australia
3. europe

THREE KID’S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. jerad (empirical evidence seems to have shown that jerads are relatively good looking)
2. danielle
3. zachary

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get my very own car
2. have a family
3. Go on amazing vacations with the guy i love

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i like to sit with my legs up on the chair.
2. i look at pretty girls
3. I love to eat.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I love to shop
2. Mood swings.
3. i look at cute guys

THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Ewan McGregor
2. The Gardener in Desperate Housewives
3. Jude Law (i love his accent)

THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Angelina Jolie ( she's hot)
2.Cameron Diaz
3. Devon Aoki (she's got such a unique look)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Nadia
2. Hanting
3. mag

wen at 12:35 PM

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Thursday, August 11, 2005

august woes.

its august already. 8 months into the year. 3 months to my birthday.another 4 to the end of the year, half way through the end of year 1 as a law student.
i have been attempting to re-orientate myself round this whole new concept of the school year beginning in aug and ending somewhere in the middle of next year. strangely reminds me of french rev.
been doing readings everyday and they either remind me of history notes or econs.

the laptop business has been getting on my nerves.i've been patient. i've paid up ant my laptop is no where in sight.i called apple to bug them and all they could do was to push the blame to the supplier, the middle man. and the man at the notebook centre isn't helping..
he just doesn't get it that it isn't amusing when he tells me on monday:
"oh your laptop isn't here yet. BUT the good thing is i'll get to see you again"

give me a break will you.

and so i ventured back there today to try my luck since they decided not to answer the phones for a day.
and the same guy told me with equal amount of glee:
"... oh then i'll just see you another 3 times or something..."
i walked off before he even finished.

as you get older, things get more complicated. you think too much. you feel responsible. and sometimes, you'll just gladly turn your back on everything and runaway.
i intend to drop my tuition kid cuz i don't think i'm giving her 100% cuz at the end of the day i feel tired already and i really think she deserves better and besides, i really shouldn't waste her money. but i feel bad. i feel responsible. and as i thought about it today.. i felt real crappy because in all sincerity, she really is a nice and good kid to tutor. anyone willing to take over?

sometimes, i wish things didn't have to be as complicated as they were. thinking too much isn't good for the health and soul.

wen at 10:07 PM

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Tuesday, August 09, 2005


happy colours for the first day of school  Posted by Picasa

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Sunday, August 07, 2005

i have delayed reaction.
i just cried over the end of something great we all shared.
i'm currently trying to do my readings for tmr and then i look at the photos from yesterday and it suddenly all hits me.
*sniffles*

wen at 10:27 AM

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we couldn't have looked any better Posted by Picasa

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mag, lynn n york Posted by Picasa

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i love this photo babe Posted by Picasa

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pretty girls! Posted by Picasa

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aeroplane me! Posted by Picasa

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jared.. after getting stripped by the guys Posted by Picasa

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the guys Posted by Picasa

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baby carry Posted by Picasa

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my yandao partner. Posted by Picasa

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the lovely lead couple Posted by Picasa

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my sunshine!! Posted by Picasa

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street scene. haha. Posted by Picasa

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