Monday, March 28, 2005

hold me tight

i have absolutely no idea why i was so bummed about being home alone last night while my parents were out at a wedding dinner. it seemed that i was back to when i was a kid, crying when my parents were out and my then-maid's entertainment waned and lost its effect on me. i truely felt sorry for myself. [i know i know, i must be sounding pathetic] guess solitude isn't such a good idea for a person like me. i need company. i'm not one who can survive out there on her own. i can't imagine wanting to live alone.even if parents get on your nerves at times, its still company. even if you spend half the time in the room doing your own stuff, somehow its still comforting to know that there's someone just a walking distance away. at least i feel this way.

i recall writing a GP essay about solitude being good for the soul. thats some bull. solitude is good only for short periods of time.not when its late at night esp . i hate huge crowds yet i loathe long periods of being alone. but i love one on one tete-a-tetes and cosy group gatherings.

sometimes i feel so dependent on people. and emotional to boot. sometimes i feel so selfish wanting all those i love to be always around me. but i know that everyone has their own lives to lead, dreams to pursue, futures to create. meeting up is made all the more difficult. meetings made all the more precious.

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Sunday, March 27, 2005


my bao3 beis4...  Posted by Hello

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my girls..  Posted by Hello

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

somewhere only we both know

finally after 2 previous botched attempts at making it to the zoo (because of the insane weather), i finally went there after many many years.i dragged him there with me after much hounding.. i think i'm like one of the few people i know who genuinely want to go to the zoo for the animals. and yes the ice cream.. it was soo crowded cuz of it being a public hol yesterday.. kids everywhere. but it was really fun in the sun.. though most of the animals chose rather to have their afternoon siesta than to be all gungho for all we kaypoh people.

p/s. all the rest of the zoo +march photos up here
and by the way i'm so pleased with myself for spotting the world of sports 50% sale! i managed to lay my hands on an adidas top.. though most of the things were already gone by the time i got there.. darn.

i woke up at an obsence time of 530 this morning to go sau mu. was sleeping in the car.. to tell the truth i have absolutely zilch idea about half the things i pray to or do most of the time.. i think of it more of tradition rather than a religion . but i think with time, this kind of thing is gonna be lost on future generations. mine included. which is sad.. tradition is part of culture. and it means that with people being more anglicised, something is eroded. *this reminds me of translations* and so.. breakfast was at bukit timah hawker centre.. and thereafter i collapsed back into bed and zonked out until 1240 when i jumped out of bed literally with a start, realizing that i had dance in 20 min. so i hastily dumped everything into my bag and bugged my dad for a ride to the gym..
i like sat afternoons after dance because it means a chance to chit chat.. talked with jiamin n shobs until 245 and it was pretty cool..

i started tuition with this sec 3 girl last week. and she's such a sweet thing.. as in i think she's cute and all. coaching her in emath. realized that i was horribly rusty.. argh. bought her an assessment book for more practice.. i hope i'm not being idealistic or anything. thankfully, she stays at yishun which is near my place..

well happy easter to all.. people have been asking me to go to church with them.. juline, flor, and then there was this woman in my dance class who passed out city harvest fliers. i've nothing against going to church..really.but i'm happy with my agnostic/atheistic/faith in something ways for now(yes i vacillate). i don't want to attend any service half heartedly.. think its not fair for either party. not that i havn't been to one before. but yes. i appreciate everyone's invitiations..

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home on the ranch. with the horsies..  Posted by Hello

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him and his fellow name-sake.. Posted by Hello

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cute little things.. Posted by Hello

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with a sad little name..  Posted by Hello

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its "mugger toad" no more..  Posted by Hello

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to top off a wonderful whirl-about- the-zoo. my new love.. ben n jerry's Posted by Hello

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

all u people

am feeling tired now..
can't bother with attempting to either read or study my basic theory. [yes i know everyone in the world has moved on]maybe it was the work out i had earlier on.. or maybe i just woke up early this morning. bah. moving my arse.. be it taking a slow jog or even playin with weights[comparatively to those beefed up guys].. i'm happy. and did i mention that you get to meet interesting ppl. no (un)fortunately there have been no cute people coming up to me wanting me number. i've been meeting middle aged people. yes. when i ran at the reservoir last year, i met this bunch of regular uncles who could run circles around the average guy and more or less said hi each time i saw them. then i met this aunty at the gym just the other day. it was her first time there n was eager for company. and then on the track i meet (guess who) another 2 very interesting middle aged corny guys

"hey lets go drink johnny walker..."
"nah.. more like johnny jogger you mean.."
hurhur.

they were sweet enough to ask me to continue jogging when i stopped to check my sadly busted toe (which got nicked the nite before when i kicked my arm chair accidentally)

" hey.. we left the first lane open specially for you"
me: " yea.. how honoured"
"see, you smile and then you get more stamina to run!" [pleased with themselves]
*shakes my head n grins*
and just before i run off..
"don't believe us.. we're con men.. we con you!"

and so u have the nice people and then there are some who are downright rude. some people who have no cow sense to move into the mrt carriage so poor souls down have to run n make a flying leap past the doors, just short of doing a dau pok on someone else. and then there was this girl who acted like someone died and made her the queen.. shoving her way through ppl asking them to "move it". what the.. some people who look on impassively when someone's luggage falls off the airport trolley onto my foot. so ok.. i suppose i look like superwoman.. 2 bags on my foot wouldn't hurt a wee bit. so being superwoman, i single handedly put back the bags on the trolley. bi-atches.
i suppose i would classify my interview under the latter category. ok he's not rude. he's not mean. he was just being pushy.. and irritating. and prob enjoying it. it probably was his modus operandi in any case.. well kudos to you cuz i'm not sure if i pissed them off..

2 more weeks to singing " my bonny lies over the ocean..."

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Sunday, March 20, 2005


foo and her disappearing act.  Posted by Hello

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blurry pic of everyone..  Posted by Hello

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traffic light babes Posted by Hello

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marshmellow babes Posted by Hello

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and i'm feeling good.

the week has been full of ups and downs but on retrospect, it ended perfectly.
there was tanning at sentosa which thankfully didn't end up with a roasted lobster like the last time. there was this absolutely cute dog running around the beach and havin fun in the water and this set me off dreaming. i want to get my driving license then i'll get a dog and i'll drive the both of us to sentosa for some fun. i love the colours at sentosa. somehow the colours at sentosa tend to be brighter, sharper in focus, richer in hue, the greater the contrast.
max brenners totally rocked my socks. it was complete decadance. chocolate has always had a love-hate relationship with me. the souffle plus melted choc was... ohhh man.. *insert any word of ultimate pleasure.surrender.* but it also meant that i walked away feeling so bloated and a bit light in the head.
i've taken to shopping for office wear funky enough to be worn for shopping round town. have decided that its a worthy investment.. (not to mention its the perfect excuse to go shopping.. ahh every gal's fav pasttime)
dinner on fri was at fish and co was with the guys and boy do i feel proud of all of them. majority of them going to ocs.. considering that not many people on the whole made it there. testimont to their fine character. ha. to think that just a couple of years back.. i always thought they were just good for socialising. everyone's growing up. and well as expected, i stuffed myself silly with the seafood platter.
gym and dance yesterday made me a very happy girl.. made me feel like i accomplished something.. not sitting around on my butt the whole time. smu open house was rather pathetic. so much for an extravaganza. shob n i left in record time. then it was off to wing's house for 409 bbq.
i was really happy with the number who turned up and the people who turned up. everyone has grown up indeed.. so ladylike and pretty.. we had sooo much food at the end of the day cuz wing's neighbours gave us food after they were done with theirs. out of the 3 bbq pits, ours had the most noise- shiyan's shrieks.. laughter.. chatter.. phone's radios set on loudspeaker mode..attempts at stokin the fire..
how times have changed.. talk has evolved into the future, uni, reminescing about the past, relationships... phototaking frenzy.. updating hp numbers..sausage fondue(aka burnt sausages)..crazy insane talk.. waiting just for dessert..
we used to have to go off at 9 or 9 plus.. now we just lingered long enough to not miss our last buses. i really love this bunch of girls.. friends i'll keep for life. thank you so much for everything. its real nice to be able to just get together after so long and talk to each other with such ease.

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Friday, March 18, 2005


ultimate joy sinning..  Posted by Hello

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ohhhh boy Posted by Hello

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class gathering at weixian's place Posted by Hello

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

let's get it started

started work yesterday at my new workplace.. its the building where jack's place is.. so if anyone pops by, visit me during lunch time~

opened letters;discovered my boss' cute surname:greedy;realised that he's a rugby enthusiast while typing out his e mails and is probably gonna play in the singapore sevens with his very own club;then printed mail while wrestling with a ultra laggy outlook. it only works when my supervisor is around i swear;went off to the bank; had lunch n saw kids on school holiday and i felt a twang of sadness.. or was it envy.; where's the simple happiness? squabbling about inane things with pri school friends and siblings...

back to sorting out sales kits; wrestling with 2 huge packages attempting to stuff them into a DHL box...

i must say i'm quite enjoying myself there even though stress levels and work load are a whole lot more as compared to my previous hpb job. stress comes from the pressure to do things right and not screw up anything considering that they're a huge company. running errands are fun only because they're all in orchard road. haha. take the time to shop too. been learning alot as well.. like how to operate the electronic type writer, calling DHL and signing for parcels and documents. makes me feel somewhat important. ha.

i'm seriously impressed with my jetsetting boss.. flying across the world (he just flew in yesterday from goodness knows where and is off to hongkong tmr)he's got a chauffeur.. he flys SIA business/first class..he gets invited to big events. yadda yadda. i wanna be him!
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my enthusiasm for going overseas has died. i lost the ability to keep the flame going. maybe i never did truely have any passion for it. i was just caught up in the romanticism of it all and swept away by the common excitement and euphoria and that contagious glint of adventure in everyone's eyes. i'm truely happy where i am now. staying here will make things alot easier. i understand my parent's reluctance to let me go. i'm the only kid. me leaving will only mean that the house will be a mere empty shell. lately, i've been accosted with quotes like if you don't have the courage to lose sight of the shore then you will not have the chance to discover the ocean. [or something to that effect]and for a moment it just makes me feel cowardly. it contradicts my self proclaimed title of a risk taker. i'm such a homebody that i don't want to leave what i'm most familiar with. i attempy to justify my emotions but somewhat falling short.

sometimes i think i'm a hedonist. always thinkin about play. wanting to escape the heavy things in life. at times i have so many doubts about myself. i wonder where's my confidence and belief.sometimes i wish i could just follow through with my faith and hope and belief in the future. but that perfect orb of the future is tainted. tainted with reality and cynicism.

stars..
They're not afraid to burn
To lose themselves while turning into light

wen at 8:26 PM

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

its hard to let go

i went back to RJ today to get my certs certified.. i think i'll never get used to the school being that big. for the crumbling-to-dust shack the ghim moh campus was, i like it so much better than the new one. cosy corners.. the breezy canteen with the view of the field, ts corridors which threaten to break apart each time you step on "the spot".. the library which i grew acustomed to and made it my regular hideout during the exams..with the library gang..smuggling sweets to keep myself awake in the library, running around the track before the library opens to kick start the day, canteen food, wednesdays when we were all chased away by the cleaning aunties, trainings, lovely sunsets, those 'glances'.. the times when i looked out for your, ghim moh food: chicken and duck rice, dessert, tang yuan ... classes in the ts, the insane air conditioning..
i see the j1s and i'm thinking.. kids, have the time of your lives. i know i've said that i'll not miss RJ.. but i've figured that no matter how little your 'love' is for anything, once that something has become a routine, leaving it seems to be leaving a little part of you behind once you've gotten used to it.
i must have said this a gazillion times but i miss uniformed days. life was so much simpler.. it was just mugging your ass off and playing just as hard. just manage your pocket money.. running off to watch movies, pigging out, tutorials and essays..i wish i'd known better.
these few days have been spent thinking quite abit about the future.. universities, planning my schedule, attempting to spend time with justin, starting a new job next monday, driving... friends..
each step you take, each decision you make, the greater the impact it has on your life.
and i'm so sorry to my babe... i really forgot the date.. didn't mean to. I'll make it up to you.. somehow.
it seems like murphy's law works all the time. when there are no jobs available, all is quiet on the job front. and suddenly today, i got a call from ocbc telling me that there was a temp job opening. then i went for an interview at recruitexpress in the afternoon as a temp job consultant and boy did it feel stressful.. as in it was fast paced and yadayada.. well it seemed challenging, and the manager who interviewed me was like perhaps the epitome of a career woman... just after i was done with the interview, my cuz called to tell me she's got a job for me too..
and so i took up the job my cuz got me.. it pays well [relatively] and its right smack in town too.. general admin duties, i can handle.. so, yay.
gotta look the corporate part so i found a jacket on offer and so with my resident fashion consultant cum [un]willing porter in tow, i went down to get it..
oh and i finally signed up for driving lessons.. which means i've gotta start mugging hard for my basic theory.. can't afford to flunk it. urgh.
sakae dinner was good. but the company was better.. its a diff feeling meeting each other after a few days as compared to seeing each other everyday.
3 more weeks before he gets shipped over to tekong..

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can?t say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

-bon jovi's I'll Be There

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Spread the Word

From Wing:

409 Babes!!! POTLUCK BARBECUE AT MY PLACE ON 19 MARCH SATURDAY!!! please spread the word around and tell me what you are bringing!!!!
stuff needed:

1)coal
2)marinated chicken wings
3)fishballs and other balls..heh
4)sausages
5)veggies?
6)softdrinks
7)barbacue forks
8)plates, cups, plastic cutlery
9)corn
10)sweet potatoes

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with our mango margarita and lychee martini Posted by Hello

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chilling at harry's Posted by Hello

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409!~wing,grace n me Posted by Hello

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

where do we go from here

4th of march came and went.
adrenaline rush and tension and surprise.
it was really great to see old friends again at j8 and at the new campus. there are galfren hugs, comfort hugs, squeezes of the hand.. hugs that have the best feeling ever.
our batch has to be insanely brilliant which explains the almost unbelievable number of people who got 3As and above.
congrats to everyone in any case.
i met my sec 3 students at j8 while i was sitting on the sofa trying out some foot massager with wing like aunties.. all so embarrassing. it was first the look of recognition on our faces and then waves.. then the bunch of them decided to come round and say , "hello ms ong!" with such glee.. and for a moment i felt real happy..
then it was harry's at night with wing.. just chilling out to the music and attempting to be all chi chi sipping mango margarita(which tasted more of the mango shakes from the era of bubble tea) and lychee martini.. unfortunately, we spilled a whole lot on the table. thank goodness for the dim lighting.. so much for poise and elegance.
guess the feeling of getting old is getting to me.. hitting the big 2 next year. and i would never have imagined myself sitting in some bar sipping cocktails.. we are so not teeny boppers anymore. i miss uniformed days. so its gonna be uni in a few months.. then getting a career and before long, everyone's gonna start getting married and having kids. really.. i'm not ready to be an adult.
michael buble's feeling good is my current spin and i can't stop listening to it.. its absolutely sexy and reminds me of all those bond(of sean connery's heyday) bombshells with smoky eyes.. hot baby.

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

keep the faith

lust worthy items:
1.my new white nokia 7260 which i bought with my HARD EARNED money.. and yes i feel the pinch terribly.
2.this green and pink satin spag top on forever21's website. *drool inducing*
3. cute undies from topshop
4. satisfactory results at least

i'm not sure how long this front of bravado will last..

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

wen at 10:04 PM

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