Tuesday, April 12, 2005

restless heart/ that some kind of wonderful

i've been attempting to fill my time. minimising possible pockets of time where i end up thinking too much. it gets draining after awhile.

i was glad to be able to have spent my last saturday with my girls.. shopping with shoba at the flea market. or rather i shopped and she watched me make whirlwind stops while shuffling along with the crowd.picking out tops for below 10 bucks gave me a heady adrenaline rush.. there's something about shopping that gives girls that wow feeling. i guess its all about getting good bargains and walking out of the store with the firm belief that whatever you just purchased is gonna up your 'attractive' factor another notch. we joined up with lydia at raffles city and actually went for a late tea.. actually it was more like starters before dinner.. but finding that 1 for 1 offer at that deli was just too hard to resist. then it was flor for dinner.. and chill out time at indochine.. the atmosphere was great..though dessert not so great but the company makde up for it.it was just nice to spend time together. its always nice to spend time with my girls.. talking about stuff.. catching up.

i wonder.. do people discriminate when they tell friends things or am i theweird one. like how you can tell A certain stuff and you tell B other stuff even though both are girls you love. its just how certain people understand certain stuff better than the rest and it makes you more at ease telling them about them. and then i think about the sex and the city quartet and they actually know every single detail about each others life and i'm like wow... thats what i call real girl frens.

i had my first driving lesson last night and it was pretty fun i must say. almost like driving daytona and its quite addictive. thank goodness for such a nice instructor though he must have been terribly amused at me cuz he burst out laughing in the middle of silence during lesson.. and it was just the 2 of us in the car.. *raises eyebrows* and he asked me if i was afraid.. afraid to accelerate the car. he must have been amused with all my sound effects.. all my "whoops" and "eeks" and "aahs".. my turnings are still dodgey..but yes i can't wait for the next lesson.

sometimes i think of myself as really silly... so malleable. so pliable. is that the truth? how much i care how people think..to be strong and independent.. it means to appear to be resilient and always happy in front of others? not to whine openly? is that wat it means to be strong? to absorb everything so that no one knows?that sucks. really.

life is good nonetheless.

wen at 9:50 PM

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