i'll point you home.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

could have, would have.

All the could have beens and would have beens in the world put together would probably circle the earth a million times.

It just doesn't end. It's all suppose to make life a whole lot more interesting and exciting. But more often than not, such stuff are cringe worthy laced with a tinge of regret.

DXO COULD HAVE BEEN AND SHOULD HAVE BEEN alot more better than last night.People went in with high hopes. People came out feeling like crap. Its really a pity about the nice deco because I don't think i'll ever go back there ever again. Bad music coupled with a horrid DJ which resulted in lacklustre dancing and sulky faces and a sudden lack of vodka during the 1 hour of freeflow.I would have been much happier just pigging out with friends anywhere. I would even have been happier and more productive sitting at home reading beckman.I could have gotten my 8 hours worth of sleep instead of getting a pathetic 6, waking up knowing that i really should get my ass down to doing my readings. I would have been much happier if i hadn't asked justin n matt along. I felt bad that i wasted their time and their money.

I hate knowing about all the other possiblities that are/were open to me and yet i'm stuck in the middle. sometimes, just sometimes, following your heart may not be exactly the wisest thing to do.

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when u handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Cant stratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal u
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave u

So be gentle...

I bruise easily