i'll point you home.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

times like these

Gone through the seemingly endless prep;getting high on the smell of glue and paint; the daily dry runs; worrying about the abysmal guy to gal ratio;evaluating the freshies during registration; surviving on minimal sleep; getting grouchy; daily gossips;running around from TH to law fac and back again;watching each day go past at some crazy speed.. and now, its all over.

Everything went by in a blur. I felt excited when the freshies first came in and i started spotting familiar faces, I felt like dying when i was running on minimal sleep and was just dragging myself all over the place. I felt all so ra-ra when my og was all so jock-like when it came to playing games. I felt at ease when i knew that i had people around who were so concerned for my welfare and offered to 'protect'.I felt so weird when i had to adjust to the idea that i was my ogl in rj's senior now. I felt that wave of nostalgia when i walked down the street along dbl o. Exactly a year ago, i was doing the same thing, just with different people and as a freshie and not a year 2. And i wonder where all the time in between went.

ice breakers n land tele

scavenger hunt..
where they came to strut their stuff

and pay homage to royalty...

jungle trek where my animaniacs ( yacko, wacko, dot and the nurse) did me proud. thanks guys for being such a sport.

thoughout this camp, i realized that so many people had those beer singlets...

universal studios where you saw ppl like never before

sun-kissed

then there was formal d

hum-sum boys

table photo

all girl photo.. or maybe not.

og photo

jonathan my ogl while i was in j1...

yacko and dot!

with the 2 hottest freshies..

lets go retro!!

This camp was as much a discovery for the freshies as it was for me and those around me.
its all so tempting to jump into the foray and give your 2 cents worth. But sometimes, you restrain yourself and know that you are not one to judge.

//it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

screwed up.
I never thought relationships between people were going to be so difficult to manage. What happened to the simple innocent thing of yesteryear?

Ignorance was bliss. While it lasted. And all of a sudden, i realize the joke is on me. I was naive, thinking everything was working out fine. All too easy. I was swept away by the tide of things. I wonder what it would be like if i saw this through cold clinical eyes.
I felt so damn vulnerable. The run did me good. I felt in control. Even for awhile. I found myself praying for strength to overcome the pain from those cramps.

Thank you for sounding the alarm. Thanks for semi-scolding me. and then, thanks for knowing who i really am and standing by me.
This is how things are really supposed to be aren't they. Who to trust. Who to believe. Who to place my faith in.

And then i don't think i know anything anymore.

i couldn't be more honest.