Saturday, April 29, 2006

happy endorphines

and so it is one down. and another 2 to go. this put me in a very happy mood last night. ( I know i know. its the night before crim) but my best friend's wedding is my all time favourite show. So i decided to watch the first half of the show because the second half will only make me cry. The idea of loving someone but then watching that opportunity to make things good pass you by and loving is really knowing when to let go. sometimes love just isn't enough is it? i'm still in denial. i'm still not watching the second disc yet.
This has to be one of my favourite scenes where george bursts out into song. I never knew rupert everett could sing so well. and darn, i wish he wasn't gay in the show.. RawR. But this scene is just, timeless. Enjoy and up the notch on the love scale.


Happy feelings continued.. notwithstanding a crim paper. I've become totally impervious to all feelings after any paper. Its just another one down. Its always fun to troop down and take up one loooong table at sushi tei and then proceed to make lots and lots of noise. I guess, red was THE lucky colour today and i love my girls in law school. (and eye candies too. ) :)

on another note, i can't believe i got all excited when i found out about dash's possible parentage/bloodline. My neighbour who is an experienced dog breeder came over to see dashy boy and said that he is a possible mix between a retriever and some korean breed. now, i've heard the bit about golden retrievers from quite a number of people. But the korean breed, now thats a first.So, i've found out. Dash is possibly and most probably a ,Korean Jindo. gee, my dog, is one exotic boy.
Pure bred Jindos which are actually hunting dogs, really smart, really agile. (some crazy fella clocked 35 miles per hour. how fast is that?) Jindos will test boundaries to establish themselves at the top of dog hierarchies--a true alpha dog--due to the way in which the breed evolved.If left alone by itself for a long stretch, it finds its own entertainment.They are independent dogs and have a will of their own.
these are the korean jindos:


this is MY DASH



see the resemblence?

i'm counting down and hanging on. i can't wait to feel the sun on my face. i can't wait to laugh and just have fun. no strings attached. i can't wait to give hugs. i can't wait to laugh with the people who matter.


Would you save me from this place… adore me
Until my body melts away… explore me
I'm makin' rainbows in my mind
To watch a new world, grow inside

Can I dissolve into you… yeah
Fallin' to this sky so blue

Sunrise, sunrise, sunrise
Can you feel it now?
Sunrise, sunrise, sunrise
Can you feel it now?

Can I dissolve into you… allow me
To fall into the sky so blue… surround me
With every color in your heart… to suit me
And we'll wake up, in the morning sun

wen at 10:04 PM

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Youtube is Evil II

i love this song.He makes me wanna go be a bond girl.

wen at 4:51 PM

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Youtube is Evil..

But this is so CUTE and HILARIOUS.

wen at 10:06 AM

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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

post legal theory

no brain. no words. only pictures.

wen at 12:29 AM

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

On the Eve of Legal Theory:

Darryl, after tomorrow's paper, please throw all that you've memorized away. I pity your girlfriend, charmaine. :) Just cook.. no legal theory ok.

9:00:22 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: like.. the last line of your essay: "prof! help! i'm finnis-ed"
9:01:05 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: you see girl
9:01:09 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: i'm not from raffles
9:01:16 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: i'm not that smart
9:01:34 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: lol
9:01:37 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: no lar
9:01:38 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: nonsense
9:01:41 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: nothing to do with sch
9:02:08 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: it has SOMETHING to do with school
9:02:24 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: which is??
9:02:48 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: erm..you see, by being in a good school..you presuppose
9:02:51 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: 1you are smart
9:03:11 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: 2. recognising that the school admits smart people
9:03:36 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: macham rule of recognition and internal p.o.v.
9:03:54 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: by saying that something is a obligation
9:03:58 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: obligating
9:04:13 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: you recognise that that the ROR is valid
9:04:20 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: haha
9:04:27 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: and that the rule satisfies the ror
9:04:27 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: u make it sound like raffles is the ultimate ror
9:04:31 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: tsk
9:04:50 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: haha
9:05:07 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: but the ror doesnt mean that the school is good (efficacy)
9:05:21 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: but it merely says that the school is a school (valid)
9:05:23 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: hahaha
9:05:34 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: haha
9:05:35 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: ok
9:05:39 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: it is a social facta
9:05:41 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: our conversation is getting damned warped
9:05:43 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: and a convention
9:05:46 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: hahahaha
9:05:53 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: hahha
9:06:01 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: i think you have to think in a warped sense to do legal theory
9:06:05 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: u might as well say its in accordance with natural law..
9:06:12 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: why?
9:06:15 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: like the name raffles presuppose stuff
9:06:17 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: like first principles
9:06:27 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: of smartness etc
9:06:32 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: but it's not a basic good?
9:06:39 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: oh it is...KNOWLEDGE
9:06:40 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: knowledge la knowledge
9:06:41 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: haha
9:06:43 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: by finnis
9:06:43 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: omg
9:06:44 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: hahah
9:06:48 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: hahahahah
9:06:56 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: same wavelength!
9:07:06 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: hahahah
9:07:22 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: but here, you fail the practical reasonableness 2nd test
9:07:28 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: why so
9:07:30 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: no arbiitrary preference to any value!
9:07:46 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: you must pursue all basic goods
9:07:56 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: but doesnt it depend on individuals...
9:08:01 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: and that includes play
9:08:06 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: haha.hey.
9:08:09 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: raffles ppl play also hor
9:08:14 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: ...
9:08:16 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: right...
9:08:25 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: are you arguing policy?
9:08:28 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: ok.. maybe not as much as ac ppl
9:08:33 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: because it sure isn't a principle
9:08:37 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: what..
9:08:38 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: play?
9:08:49 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: because principles are based on justice and fairness
9:08:56 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: and?
9:09:05 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: the statement that 'raffles ppl play also'
9:09:19 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: so you are saying that because it's policy
9:09:27 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: policy when you pursue a social goal
9:09:32 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: which is to "play
9:10:02 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: that's why the theorist's name is dWORKIN
9:10:04 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: hahah
9:10:07 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: how ironic
9:10:10 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: omg
9:10:14 PM darilian@singnet.com.sg: this convo is too warped...
9:10:17 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: no wonder he turned out like that
9:10:22 PM wen_6c98@hotmail.com: weirdo

wen at 9:15 PM

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Friday, April 21, 2006

Thank god for the weatherman

I've given up driving to the reservoir at my place. I decided that I shall just run there and back.
So it wasn't any different today.
Just that I took the risk of running with dark clouds already covering half the sky.
So, Just past the midway mark and running back, I saw lightning and heard thunder.
Damn. I easily had at least 1.5k to go. Fried bunny, by virtue of lightning or Soaked bunny, by virtue of rain wasn't exactly the most comforting thought. I was just cursing myself for all the smartness of making myself run all the way. No car. No shelter.
Didn't help that I was inflicted with a stich. At least the regulars didn't seem perturbed by the impending rain. ok so smiling at them helped ease the pain somewhat and the rain made me increase my somewhat snail-like speed. ( no pun k. in light of the war against snails and slugs. I tell you, throw a handful of salt and it'll be the end of it)
The strange thing was, on the way back the roads were wet.Which was all very strange.
1 half of my route couldn't be more than 2k. Which means the rain didn't touch my route at all.
The moment I stepped into the house, it started to rain.
Apparently it was raining like shit and the lightning was damn bad, according to my mum.
yayness to the weather dude.
Its still raining as I blog this. But the sun is out.

With any luck, I'll see a rainbow.

wen at 7:00 PM

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Not Quitting.Still Alive (and mugging)

I know i'm seriously wonked when I find comfort in creeping downstairs at 12.30 am and then gleefully ripping open a sainsbury's tin of shortbread and realizing that they come in pretty shapes. and so take them upstairs with me together with a glass of milk to keep me going.
i'm running out of fuel.

But I'm still fighting. rAWR.
I need to morph from this :

to this :

Fight off legal theory monsters. hur.
talked to Darryl earlier and yayness. Do your best and just have faith.
We'll all be fine.

wen at 12:42 AM

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

I'm hanging on and fighting strong.

yesterday it rained. mist hung over the puddle-soaked ground. hanging on by a moment was on repeat. distraction.
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind


its a beautiful song i realized.
i should play it during my wedding. or better still. my hubby should sing this to me. alright. to add to my list of requirements of my ideal guy. able applicants please tell me. hur.


today, the sun was out. pockets of cold air around and running through them and smiling 5 times ( i counted) at the other regulars kept me going. even that powered indian army regular ( i made that up. i assume he is. one half of that power packed army duo. i love the other guy's tan by the way), when we met for a second time smiled and pointed at his watch and gave me a thumbs up. yay.
pain but i found my drive today. to just keep going.

in other news, i shall play my part as marketing com. please come for LAW BASH

wen at 7:15 PM

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

No Pride...

I don't know why i suddenly thought of this when I thought that maybe I should just go to sleep instead of trying to finish up automatism. And so in the name of pride, i'm up at 3 am, automatim/illegal omission in front of me. But blogging. Pride is a nasty sin and it works nastily on your mind. Got back from dinner/magic fundoshi and ice cream with amogh, mike and weixian. it has been a long time since i last saw or spoke to them proper. ok. maybe even since we last got our a level results which is all very well said, DAMN pathetic. I learned alot of new things tonigh: that the japs have a very interesting attitude towards sex;fundoshi=loincloth;japs have a festival about some monster in some woman's v ;some erotic paintings were treated as lucky charms; and did i mention? japs have a very interesting attitude towards sex. But i think more importantly, i've learnt that friends don't disappear so easily (I was apphrehensive before I went to meet the guys.) and that friends are important. No matter what. So here's to more ao1b gatherings.

In karen's words, "Its amazing that one tg actually likes each other and works together. Its just... freakin amazing that 2 tgs actually like each other and work together..."


And so, we all went on a trip to gluttons bay to give karen her present, which i am very proud of, and give her a proper taste of local fare. " Carrot cake WITHOUT the carrot? SERIOUSLY?!" " Girls used to be TRAINED to peel prawns for the males" " Oh, geylang...40 dollars for 30min..." "there are the more exotic ones.. like the Venezuelans.. but you end up getting pirated ones.. maybe from the phillipines" I'm glad to have found a tg cool enough to hang out together and do silly stuff like taking the task of relighting the candle of the fondue upon ourselves, or attempting to toast marshmellows over the candle flame then watching it combust into flames instead and using the leftover choc to draw a smiley face on the plate and wait to watch the waitress' reaction when she collected it.


I've learned thus far that sometimes, there is a need to look beyond pride because its so easy to lick your wounds and nurse your pride and at times, you lose sight of the bigger picture, that sometimes, just forgive and forget and move on. Its time to make that leap of faith again. Its probably not easy but hell yea, stop denial and face what is really inside. I've pendulumned beween the extremes of listening to my heart and listening to my head, being tempestuous and reckless and being cautious and afraid. Sometimes Its not easy to find middle ground but:
be strong. live strong. and take heart in knowing that you were true to yourself
at least you learn even if you were wrong


I'm back to listening to my heart.

wen at 2:48 AM

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Legal Theory is screwing up my brain.

many sides of me.

A re-ordering of affairs is in the works. According to Finnis' 7 basic goods or his 9 aspects of practical reasonableness? Seriously, it is not entirely bull, what these fellows say, though they do inspire much for future pet names, like Radbruch and Alexy. According to a couple of these dead guys,especially Finnis, there is always both an internal aspect, as when one strives to bring one's emotions into the harmony of an inner aspect of mind and an external aspect when one strives to make one's actions authentic, in relation to the rest of society.

So I've realized, that maybe I've been living, not as who I really am. That everything is really a facade, not in the sense that it is entirely false, but in the sense that the 'me' that everyone has been hanging out with is really a result of a conflict of the internal and the external. In the process of attempted self-determination, maybe I lost the plot with regard to self-realization and self-awareness. So there is this prenniel conflict and this is no exception. Trying to take the path of least resistence, and so there is this happy fluffy side of me that people come to know, and yet at the same time, I harden with the passage of time to protect what is really the marshmellow-softness of me inside. Its a practical move like how people obey unjust laws, just so as not to screw up the entire legal system (though i doubt that is the real reason). For the past few months, I've been on an emotional roller coaster that only a close few would know. If I didn't retreat into my shell, who was going to protect me? I suppose, previously, I always had a protector by my side, so I was free to be all soft and fluffy. But why want to expose when there is another alternative? At the same time, there is an attempt to live and not bother about what other people think. Being happy and fluffy was an attempt at trying to flesh out the more 'real' side of me but it got contaminated along the way.
I guess it came out all wrong.
Everything was just the result of contradictions.
At the end of all these, all I want to say is that the 'new' me doesn't mean that the 'old' me is dead. She's still in there somewhere. So don't come to conclusions on who I really am just yet. Hold your horses.

Disclaimer: This entry doesn't mean that I'm confused or unhappy alright. Quite the contrary in fact.

To an old friend, time doesn't validate friendship. I love you still.We'll catch up after the exams.
To another old friend, I think a good talk needs to be in the works. :)

wen at 12:25 PM

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Monday, April 10, 2006

Rule of Recognition

That is Hart's interpretation of the ultimate rule of the legal system. To recognize the rules that impose obligations and which will be accepted by officials.

I now present the Rule of Mugging being the ultimate rule of being nowadays. To recognize the rule that imposes obligations on law students to mug for the exams, whether you accept it or not.

wen at 9:14 PM

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

i love you

because my camera drowned, and i'm fooling around with my dad's camera, i shall proclaim my love.
Dash used to look soooo adorable:




Now, he's a handsome kiddo. His first baby tooth dropped out and he's got another shaky one!




and i give you concrete evidence on why i love my reservoir. Everyday, a different gorgeous sunset.


on another note, guys are complete idiots sometimes.
I think i shall just love Dash.

wen at 12:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

love and lost

Power Within. I have not heard this song in a long while until my girlfriend sent it to me and it has been on repeat ever since. She reminded me how memories feel in my heart. Warm, bursting with colour. I smile at the joy we shared and mourn for the innocence lost. The irony. How physical distance can make you feel close all at the same time. How she knew how I felt after everything, how i needed to find the power within. How much I realized I missed my girlfriends.
This may be cheesy but weren't we all suckers for this kinda thing a couple of years back.
I dedicate this to every one and any one who has stored away memories. Its time to revisit them.
I dedicate this to every one who at one point or another needs to find the strength and faith within.


you don't have to be afraid
we're here to guide your way
put faith in us
faith in your heart
we will light your way

we will find our shining star
if we hold on to our dreams
embrace each day with love and grace
experience life in your own special way
you are made for greaater things than this

when storms and dark clouds come your way
hold on as strongly to your faith
be strong and courageous in your heart
and you'll shine like a star
in the dark

i never thought i'll put this poem on my blog. The first time I read this was in one of my first lit papers, one afternoon in my memory. Never thought I would love it now.
Out of Danger
Heart be kind and sign the release
As the trees their loss approve.
Learn as leaves must learn to fall
Out of danger, out of love.

What belongs to frost and thaw
Sullen winter will not harm.
What belongs to wind and rain
Is out of danger from the storm.

Jealous passion, cruel need
Betray the heart they feed upon.
But what belongs to earth and death
Is out of danger from the sun.

I was cruel, I was wrong -
Hard to say and hard to know.
You do not belong to me.
You are out of danger now -

Out of danger from the wind,
Out of danger from the wave,
Out of danger from the heart
Falling, falling out of love.

- James Fenton

what is it with first loves.
that one odd feeling that won't go away.
every word, taken and twisted.
like a moth i fly to the light. and get burnt.
tell me when will i learn. and stop.

wen at 11:52 PM

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Monday, April 03, 2006

let's paint the town red.

Paintball was fun! The girls prob dont have that many a battle scar to show since becky and i pretty much hid and sniped. (hey we weren't too bad..shooting down targets and i shot jon lau i think. hur)I think jared and jon lau got it the worse. As the guy said, "sunday lovebites".
Many thanks to Karen who so happily joined in the fun and provided more ammo for us.
i give you good reason not to mess with a girl



team tg 13


we all look outfield.

all ready for a fight:


Jared has a habit of popping up in photos not meant to include him: (ie. 'kinky' photos and tg photos. :P)



I am in love with Scotts 28! dammit.
cleopatra and the divas on the red sofa/girls in the mini pool which is gorgeous by the way

tg 13 at the multi-purpose room


and now its time to mug and get fit.

wen at 8:29 PM

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Saturday, April 01, 2006

fridays are always good to me

Jared, this one's for you. Hope you enjoyed your surprise filled day:

the whole process of waiting for shoo to take jared away just so all of us could squeeze into law club room
the birthday boy.

all squeeze!

this was an attempt at spoiling the photo because of...

my having to take a photo with jared's shoe instead of kalyn's pretty face.

happy birthday!

brokeback!

then there was the dinner [where there seemed to be sentry posts all over. and random heart attacks just so to avoid shoo and jared in the car park. i'm positive i accelerated and went against traffic flow. thank god there were no cars]

In various states of cuteness:



this is absolutely priceless.

eye candies! -kai.

there was lots of drinking post dinner.. among the guys that is, in an attempt for more brokeback action. [i'm actually worried about spending my 21st birthday with friends like these. but i still love you guys. :) ]
------
how things change. why do people cause hurt to avoid hurt themselves.
fate, serendipity, destiny. how much can you take hold of and take control?

wen at 10:38 PM

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