Wednesday, February 22, 2006

oh how i need someone to watch over me.

Sometimes i feel like everything is blurring up and losing focus. Just like one of those pretty artistic things. Or like one of those ending, parting shots where everything fades. Funky.Not. It may seem all fine and dandy sometimes to be carried with the flow. Just let things be they say and time will tell. But doesn't it come to a point in time when it doesns't get quite so pretty and fun anymore?
One limp body. Carried by the tide.
A flailing hand that droops.
Eyes wide open, Head turned to the side.
To avoid.
To be content.
Because there will be a destination.
I am no longer satisfied with what i have. I want more. and cue in the little mermaid:
've got gadgets and gizmos aplenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more
i want more focus and discipline. Not to be distracted with the peripheral and to centre my attention on what is important. I want to feel that same drive i had during my pre A level days. i want something to motivate me. or maybe a someone will do.

this year is going to be a year of self discovery i fathom.

wen at 1:29 AM

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

vertigo

and so the memo has been laid to rest. for now. before it is resurrected from the dead( i've since condemned it. formatting it for 1 and a half hours was so not worth it) for the rewrite and then the moots.
the past week has been absolutely crazily a mad rush. I hardly remember anything clearly. everything just seems to be a rush of colours and pictures all put together to make one long day. explains the clear lack of words in recent posts. it is already the mid sem break and very soon it'll be the end of our first year in law school. -horror- which means that we are only getting closer to the end of all the happy school days and getting older. and getting down to the whole career thing, and eventually marriage. now i just get the feeling of wanting to backpaddle. can i? pretty please. j4s sounds so ancient. to think that my jc class is attempting to organize a visit to prince. i can't imagine.

there seems to be a need to grapple with change especially so lately. within myself. with others.
how word goes around so fast. how ppl judge.
how i want to break free sometimes.
someone take me to a good rock-and-let-your-hair-down-concert.

and so you're going to be the one to save me
and after all
you're my wonderwall

wen at 3:06 PM

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mr (apply- permit) leong who goes to MOS to read karma sutra and thus becomes rambo. (hurhur)  Posted by Picasa

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wenzhao. erhem. jiggly jiggly. Posted by Picasa

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hawwwt. Posted by Picasa

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germ n al.  Posted by Picasa

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n twee gets the girls.hurh.  Posted by Picasa

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j n audrey.  Posted by Picasa

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just because everyone thought my getup looked bdsm. hurh. rawr.  Posted by Picasa

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

rush.

thinking makes you hungry.
and this week has left me wanting for more time.

this is the after effect of much baking and much wrapping of roses. i become the pet bunny for the night.


this bouquet of 99 roses which i was so tempted to keep for myself. sadly, its not mine.


then there was justin's sword ceremony( where i was terribly amused when they played kenny g throughout the entire thing and at the same time tryin desperately to think about my memo. yes i brought my high court judgement and stuff there)




and then its back to the memo.

wen at 11:36 PM

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Thursday, February 09, 2006

idare.

It was the start of the week when I saw that sunset.
A quiet Monday at my reservoir.
It made me feel so small. To see the rays filter through the clouds like one of those picture postcards.
It made me feel so in awe. To behold the colours of the sky.
Then Switchfoot started playing on my ipod.
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence

If coming to existence meant being heralded with a view like this, it would all be worth it.
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

All of a sudden, all the pain of running and feeling like crap was worth it and i just felt ready to push new boundaries.
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

Salvation is within.

wen at 7:13 AM

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

heart drenched in wine

dash with a big smirk on this face. ( no photoshop involved):)



I’m out of vogue, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much

They always said to live life without regrets because there isn't anytime for that. But somehow, there always seems to be time for that, for questions about things done and past.
I shouldn't expect too much and ask for too much.

Hide behind that mask of a smile.

wen at 10:00 PM

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

drink and make merry

The weekend has been an amalgation of much visiting much stuffing my face with ba kwa and yu sheng and good food, and (not so)much collecting of ang pows. It feels so strange and yet exciting when i discover that my cousin was actually classmates with a certain contract tutor (B.ong) and then i realize that her husband was SLS's T.Es JC classmate. the noise that my cousin and i were making while somewhat gossiping over tutors who were around during her time and ARE still around was insane. This same illuminating visit which i made to my grandma's house just reaffirmed my belief that english guys know how to be incredibly charming cuz my uncle's friend who was there took a good hard look at the huge ring on my finger and then proceeded to kiss it.. or maybe he was just high on the bubbly.

my precocious little nephew


Then there was that long overdue supper, crazy mahjong sessions which lasted all the way until 530 am in the morning complete with screams, vindictive bitching over the table over tiles ( ala " wentu! you have a tummy!!") and more steamboats...



Law Bash was last night and the pageant preview was just smashing:

this is the result of drinkin vodka sprite out of a macdonolds cup and getting a wee bit high prior to the actual event

germ,kai, twee.

dalena.


j chen, i'm how nice. take photos of you. -erhem-


with hawwt pageant nominees.



And, just because i'm a photowhore, and i have not done this in a long long time, (please do bear with me, my baobeis will understand)


Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here
People always say life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear

Or how the road can seem so long
Or how the road can seem so vast
Courage see me through
Heart i'm trusting you

wen at 10:10 PM

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